Hug your loved ones, and often

Hello,
just found your post.
I'm sorry
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May she be granted eternal peace,
to you Bill the strength to soldier on.

Bill,

So sorry to hear of tragic situation of your loss of your beloved wife.

I suffer from bi-polar disorder and I count myself lucky that I only have it mildly. When I'm down there is no rational reasoning and reaching out is the last thing I really want to do - ultimately it is the disease talking and nothing about the love you have for others. I know I am loved by my wife/kids/friends as your wife knew that you love her, but it was the darkness of the disease that took her and not anything you did or didn't do.

With respect,

Jonathan

I feel very humble, inadequate and guilty, because every single contribution expressing condolences, empathy, sympathy,words of encouragement, and the sharing of similar experiences truly deserve a personal individual response from me.Simply hitting the ''thanks'' key below every post and writing a general response occasionally seems so inadequate and disrespectful to all of you who have displayed such kindness, understanding and generosity towards me. For that I do apologise and can only stress once again that I am deeply moved, many times to tears by every contribution. and I sincerely express my condolences to everyone who has endured similar tragedies, and offer my very best wishes to those who personally have, or are caring for, or concerned about family members, friends etc that are burdened by mental or any life threatening or debilitating illness.
Regards, Bill.





Thanks 'Grimace 'and ''Going Bush' for the kind words re my past LandRover career.If the title hat you suggested Don, came anywhere near fitting me, that was a long time ago, and I freely admit that since my forced early 'retirement' this feeble memory of mine has deleted well over half of the 4wd related data that it once held.

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Simply hitting the ''thanks'' key below every post and writing a general response occasionally seems so inadequate and disrespectful to all of you who have displayed such kindness, understanding and generosity towards me.

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Definitely not the case, not at all Bill. You're acknowledging everyone and that's no disrespect. Given everything on your plate I think everyone would understand if there was no response at all :)

Sorry to hear what has happened,can't think of anything more to say than what has already been said.
An all to common very sad situation,keep your head up,we are here for you

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Originally Posted by Land Rover Widow

Definitely not the case, not at all Bill. You're acknowledging everyone and that's no disrespect. Given everything on your plate I think everyone would understand if there was no response at all :)

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LRW,well said:)

Bill,I'm on the other side of the country but if I can help in any way just ask,stay strong mate. Pat

Bill,

Having seen this thread earlier, I had avoided it. (Yeah, the typical bull**** reaction you speak of earlier)

I just knew it would be sad news.

Well , despite a little tear in my eye, I feel somewhat uplifted by the love, empathy and condolences from some truly sincere replies.

Best wishes and good luck Bill.

I am in SE suburbs of Melbourne - If you need a hand with anything drop me a PM.

.....now to go and hug the missus.

Paul

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Originally Posted by digger

I have only just lost you and the pain is so very hard to bear
Why do I have to go through life knowing you're not there?

please some one explain to me why she had to go
are there any single reasons, I really need to know

I sit here and remember all the lovely times we shared
the talks, the laughter of every one, and how you always cared

I loved you, I disliked you, we argued and we kissed;
Your face, your touch, your scent forever I shall miss;

To hold you in my arms again, my soul no longer lost;
I'd pay the price and gladly have no worry to the cost.

The thoughts so dark that ate at you, made you feel so alone
the tries you made to end it all, I understood but could not condone

Is it truly so selfish to want you back again?
although I tried I could not calm your mind, I could not ease your pain,

Sometimes I know I hurt you, I know that was so true;
But please forgive me for those wrong, for I always have and always will love you
I am told the pain will ease in time and I’ll think of her without tears
but I feel that will be impossible as I need to have her here

I’m glad the pain for her is gone, she finally found that elusive peace
But the regret I feel for things unsaid will never ever cease

She was my very world to me and my ever guiding star
Just kiss me softly on the cheek and tell me you are safe where you are




This is a combination and adaptation of “The Leaving” by Colin Jarratt and “My Lost Love” by Anne Spiller, apologies to both for borrowing their work but I feel combined and with a few changes it fits this situation..



Digger & Clan

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Well the time is drawing near to close the page on this unfortunate saga, and possibly to this thread as well. Once again my sincere appreciation for all your support.

To Digger and Clan,Thankyou for posting and sharing this lovely and moving poem.
Athough I have been feeling surprisingly strong and positive this past week,I just know that I will not be in any emotional condition to say too much in front of my wife and everyone at the funeral tomorrow.
Along with a separate note with a few words of my own, I would like to print this poem out and place it on her coffin, because as you mentioned
''it fits this situation'' almost perfectly.
Regards, Bill.