Hey Mario! Been offline most of the time whilst up here, just read of your woes. Really sorry things just seem to be going so badly for you at the moment.
Hang in there mate, hopefully things will start taking a turn for the better soon
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Hey Mario! Been offline most of the time whilst up here, just read of your woes. Really sorry things just seem to be going so badly for you at the moment.
Hang in there mate, hopefully things will start taking a turn for the better soon
Tripping out!
I Had a few real hard days with extreme pain levels didn't sleep the whole night s, I had a shrink appoint late that afternoon.
I told me shrink about my trip I had the morning.
"yesterday morning at 7am i start tripping!. I close my eyes laying in bed and a collage of slide pictures appear under my eyelids, I open my eyes and there gone, , then close my eyes and my inside eyelids are acting as project screens. so I close my eyes again and the show starts. It was so real in vibrant colour and wow in 3D also. images start popping out of images, better than any David Attos doco!. one scene a sandy beach with mangroves I look the the tangles roots and they morphed into womens legs, , no body just long legs paddling splashing in the water, then into the forest, the trees plants flowers popping out of one another morphing into other flowers and animal. Then I got to horses turning into seals and seals morphed into dogs and cats. It was so beautiful seeing this show and I was out of pain. There was no back ground music no sound all was silent, but it was all so beautiful. It continues and this is were it get's interesting, cat turns into a pig, but the pig is a suckling pig and it's cooked!m but it's alive! and its walking abound a wooden porch and it starts to smooch and rub up against 2 human legs looking up and smiling. I look down, ( the legs belonged to me ) and i see the back of this pig has some nicely crackling, but the pig has a big fluffy cat's tail wagging happily .. At the moment is when i open my eyes lids and said that's too far fetched!.
All this time whilst telling my shrink this she has sad eyes, until I get to the crackling bit, I hear her shreik out a laugh. We both has a chuckle about that bit. she comments and says to me amazing, it doesn't matter what I'm going through a comic always enters somewhere. I said to her, yep it must be my way of some how coping.
She said out of all the dreams I have told her about this one is one of the weirdest.
It was a pretty sad and emotional time for both of us as I have known her for 10 odd years and the rapport built up over that time. There's been a fee times she has sat there and listened and you can see here getting teared up and keeping professional held if back.
She then asked me a question, whats my age again? and few moments later was I afraid of death? Any way, we went trough out usual hour session, then we had the problem of me getting up off the couch, we used a few tools like s chair for support and she leaning on if to counter balance it. Eventually I was able to get up. She walked with me to the car and off I went.
On the way home I though to myself why did she ask me about death? did she think I was suicidal?
Was my dream like my time had come and I was going to die then and at the last minute decided no I didn't want to get on the bus?
I remember a scene from Soylent green when Charlton Heston's screen father is dying and he is taken to a room to die in peace and they play a projector screen for him to watch in peace of the world of nature?
hmmm, this one was so peaceful happy and pleasant. All history of other episodes of the years were nightmares with pain. Even Ketamine was different ,they wee out of body experiences.
Deprived sleep and a opiate and me having a dose of a flu might have been the cuase of this one.
Possibly a bladder infection again ( bladder infections are known to cuase some doosys halucinations in older people).
You probably reading this think I should be committed. I woke I day with less pain after getting some needed sleep, so will see what next the installment gives.
Cheers,
Mario AKA pig crackling
Don't know what to make of your tripping episodes but they sound vivid. The pork crackling was funny. I love pork crackling and despite reading all the tricks I only have moderate success in my Weber Q.
After my CABGs (heart by-passes) in late 2016, I vaguely recall having some weird and emotional 'waking dreams' the first day in the room after ICU.
Same thing, open eyes and see Reality, drop the screens and . . . Fantasia. [bigsmile]
"Vaguely" because I can't remember ANY details, only the impact on me. [bawl]
And, sounds like your 'Psych.' is looking after you Very Well. [smilebigeye]
Soylent Green ? - I remember that scene too ! -Gosh, that mean I'm as Old as you ! [bigsmile][bigwhistle][bigsmile]
While you can still laugh about it Mario, there is not much wrong with you! Hang in there, a way to go yet!Quote:
You probably reading this think I should be committed. I woke I day with less pain after getting some needed sleep, so will see what next the installment gives.
Cheers, Mario AKA pig crackling
By the way, if you see any of those mud crabs amongst the Mango trees, bring a few back as they are good eating. Cheers.
Wow Mario
With prose like that you're giving Hunter S Thompson a run for his money!
Hang in there.
Cheers
Steve
Yep, same thing here. I'm sorr of convinced that when they stopped my heart to do the CABG, my body thought I had died, and was trying to make sense of this "new" existence.Quote:
Originally Posted by superquag
No more Tramadol for you Mario!!
I had a similar 'euphoric' episode a few years ago after knee surgery. One Tramadol and wow :) ..................... who cares about mere pain, I felt fantastic until SWMBO (nurse) took one look at me and laid down the law, "suck it up sunshine, no more Tramadol for you" ............ but it was nice while it lasted. :)
Deano :)
Ive got tramadol 200mg and all it does for me is keeps me awake. If i take it in the evening i cant sleep. I must have some sort of immunity coz it dont kill the pain, even if i take 2 at a time...400mg. Im feeling ripped off...
I had something similar while on morphine for kidney stones, but I don't remember any crackling. Hang in there, its all part of the wild ride.