Good on you Jason for taking some positive steps. Keep going, we're wth you...
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Good on you Jason for taking some positive steps. Keep going, we're wth you...
Banjo, I don't buy that, you are telling me that you went from a diesel mechanic working a normal job ( even though you had your problems) to being totally reclusive and not saying to yourself that there is not a problem??:confused: Look, I'm not trying to be nasty but there seems to be a period here of 23 years and you did nothing???:confused: It seems to me that you were in a comfy zone and you had Karen wrapped around your finger with the excuse that your father did bad things to you???:confused: Now lets rehash here, what is going on, my father also was a wife basher and I witnessed it as a kid, another poster on this Thread also witnessed wife bashing from an alcoholic father and we have got on with life.;)Quote:
Originally Posted by banjo
I am considerably older than you and nothing would please me more than you to tackle this problem and beat it. I am not going to cosy up to you and say "Poor Banjo" because that does not help. I see you have taken some small steps to seek help and I say "Banjo Go For It":)
Cheers again and good luck!!!!:)
If you get on here tonight Jason - thanks for your kind words.
Hang in there mate its tough but we are all still with you and you are definitely heading in the right direction.
As I have said before - the night is always darkest just before the dawn.
Yes use did see wife bashing but did use actualy feel the hits the mental abuse & all that stuff How much of it did use actualy physicly feel besides just seeing it....I have seen it felt it & lived it..No that not an excuse but use have to realise the scaring is a hell of a lot deep when u have felt it....
I have to resend the email as i have been useing our home email to check my emails but haven't set up the wireless so i can send them so i will try & work that out today...
Those are my last words I am learnly out of net & i gave my money to karen & the kids as i have enough food & **** to see me through till thursday when i get paid...
I'm not going to get into slinging matches here with use its not worth it as i dont stand up for myself so i wont be back on anymore....THANKS..
Just keep being positive mate. You've made a start, so keep going...
I suffer from bi-polar and panic attacks... I survive on a medley of pills (Epilim, Abilify, Seroquel (800mg at night lol) and good old Xanax)... just the other day I had to drive into the city & had a helluva job getting across the Bolte bridge as it felt like I was going to have a heart attack... I know the bridge isn't going to fall down, but it still gives me the heebie-jeebies something fierce. I was totally covered in sweat by the time I got over it.
I've been in and out of psych wards several times both here and in the US. In fact I am going for a study for the "Survey of High Impact Psychosis" on the 12th.
I also have been fired from virtually every job I've had due to absenteeism- those were the days when I just couldn't get out the door.
Luckily now I have a new partner that supports me (and makes sure I take my pills lol) and things for me are way better now... I haven't been suicidal for almost 3 years... last time I took a whole bunch of pills & got arrested and taken to hospital.
Thing is that you have to set yourself small goals and just proceed from there... baby steps is what's called for.
I dunno why I wrote all this lol but I guess I just wanted to let you know that there are others out there that can sympathise & maybe help.
Google MDJunction and join some of the support groups there- they're really nice people, plus they understand exactly what you're going through.
Cheers,
Dave
Thanks Dave i will do that first thing in the morning again thanks for that..
This is what happens when i am left alone & get bored & left to my own devises..
http://i949.photobucket.com/albums/a...s/SDC10820.jpg
https://www.aulro.com/afvb/images/im...10/10/1036.jpg
I think i realy mite need a new hobby....
How long did that take you Jason?
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Originally Posted by Stuuu
Just a tad over 2 hours ..& they hurt like hell while doing them....
I gotta stick a bloody needle in myself twice a day, dont want that many bloody ****** in me mate. Check out my shed thread, just updated it. What do you do with a tat if you dont like it or make a mistake, new skin or what.
cheers
blaze