I'm not coping very well with this disease! I had a doppler scan done on the carotid arteries and a ecogardiogram done to make sure my vitals are getting sufficient blood, results were good. My Doctor has doubled the dosage of kinson tabets. I'm still at the tweaking of meds, but the body is slowing down further. I walked 10 paces inside the house aided by Heather on Wednesday to get to the Lounge chair and I passed out and went down like a ton of bricks and hit the floor with my head, then Heather and my son had a job to get me off the floor as I was a dead weight. With a bit of a head ache and sore knees I'm was ok. I have been Vegetating lying on the bed or sitting mostly as any attempt to walk brings on the feeling of falling again due to hydrostatic blood pressure and standing for more than a couple of minutes starts the excruciating muscle cramps
Yesterday i spent many hrs off and on lying down, I had a regular customer call around after hrs to pick up a part, I got up and sat on the end of my bed to talk to him , Heather was thee in the room when all of a sudden I fell back wards onto the bed and was unconscious. I was out for about 3 mins, then became semi conscious Heather said my eyes were lazy and half open and i was muttering. I noticed the customer was holding my legs up trying to help Heather get me onto the bed properly.
My NDIS application which I have applied for only gives 28 days to submit but getting additional evidence reports however is difficult in the time frame, I was told by one there was a 26 week wait but they could prioritise me to 12 weeks. NDIA can allow extensions which I did apply, I tried to get a 3rd extension and was told I rang them 2 days too late and had to re apply. This system is really broke no matter how they make out how good it is for people. I now have an appointment 6th Dec with some one to assess me with capacity reports etc.
I got really depressed as trying to deal with this horrid disease and have to comply with the system is taking its toll , I tried to see my old Pysch but she was booked out. thought of ringing life line, but some how I got through the days.
My doctor says not to dwell on my illness , but it effects me 24/7 the symptoms are there reminding me all the time. I have been researching and all says there is no cure, my Doc says not to Dr Google. But its hard not too. Thinking there might be something out there, I have many unfinished projects around the home and dont want to leave Heather with them, I just hope My condition can improve to give me some time to finish stuff.
i even looked at my life insurance policy, re terminal illnesses, clause says got to die in within a year and if they believe it will happen with in that time. Then next thing is to get our wills updated.
One thing I noticed is when you are really ill people you thought were your friends seem to avoid you. It must be the thing about them being uncomfortable about being near serious illness.
Sorry for this long winded post, I'm not after sympathy, I just needed to Ventilate.


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