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Tins
				
			 
			I don't have a 'wedding anniversary' , but Jan and I always considered the 11/11/1993 to be ours. She figured it out through some chemistry, and who was I to argue. The date stayed with us forever. 
She died 16/01/2018. 
Nothing prepares you for this.
 
JDNSW, do you still cry? I sure do, does it stop? Do you, after all those years, do you ever stop grieving?? 
You believe that what you have is forever. I am in reasonably good health, I believed I would have a life going forward. I was 62 when my life changed unalterably.  What do I do now? A dog? That's a terrible decision, at leat for me..
But, then, maybe I'll live to be 105, and I'll need TWO dogs. 
Make sure you have someone to look after your dog, and just live your life... Jan would have told me this, I think.