Thread: Embarrassment

hey jason karen
my names shaun im 16
i just read this whole thread
well what can i say, what you have said has just completly blown me away im in tears and when i show the missus im sure she will be aswell
we have been together for four years. it was only around a year ago that she told me the reason behind her agrophobia and well its only made us stronger. she constantly breaks down and it breaks my heart she has attempted suicide numerous times. i cant begin to comprehend what goes through her head sometimes, but i know with the help of family and friends we will pull though. my life has been greatly affected by this and i hope no one else ever has to suffer from this phobia
once again jason and karen i can not hank you enough for what you have said.

yours sincerly shaun

p.s. your landy looks awesome keep up the good work

G'Day Shaun, welcome to the "Embarrassments" thread, sorry to hear of your partners problems but I am sure your partner and Banjo could be a good support for each other via the internet. I am the only one on the thread that lives near Banjo, so I get to talk to him personally every now and again and being aware of Banjo's situation I have noticed a very steady improvement since he "outed" himself a few months back. Banjo has made some very good friends here and we all wish him a steady recovery and look forward to a time when Banjo can live a "reasonably" normal life. Good on you mate for making yourself known and maybe you can talk your partner into posting some details about herself, who knows maybe "Dr Banjo" can help!!!!

Originally Posted by shaunh

hey jason karen
my names shaun im 16
i just read this whole thread
well what can i say, what you have said has just completly blown me away im in tears and when i show the missus im sure she will be aswell
we have been together for four years. it was only around a year ago that she told me the reason behind her agrophobia and well its only made us stronger. she constantly breaks down and it breaks my heart she has attempted suicide numerous times. i cant begin to comprehend what goes through her head sometimes, but i know with the help of family and friends we will pull though. my life has been greatly affected by this and i hope no one else ever has to suffer from this phobia
once again jason and karen i can not hank you enough for what you have said.

yours sincerly shaun

p.s. your landy looks awesome keep up the good work

WOW 16 & to have a good head on your shoulders is a rearaty these days..
Your partner is so youg to be going threw this. I guess i have always had my problem ( Agrophobia ) it just presented itself when i was about your age , My world came crashing down around me in such a big way its very hard to explain how or why it just did..I am now 38 yrs of age & still dealing with it. I have been told by the experts that i will never cure it but over time i will be able to control it which to be honest scares the **** out of me , To know that i will have to live with this for the rest of my life & put FATTY & the KIDS through so much more it kills me, Karen & the kids have given up & sacrefised so much to help me that they dont have a fully normal life & that fatty is just now starting to be able to go out with some of her friends..See when we first started dating i was extreemly jelouse if she went out mainly because all of my previous girlfriends & i split up because of my family as i was told by a family member that they where doing this & that with other men .Because this family member didn't like the idea of me being with them so thats how they got rid of them & it always looked like i dumped them which i did but i didn't realy have to , Oh i know what i meen.. Since i have "outed" myself on here i have made progress i now do a bit more with the kids I make an effort to try & get out that doesn't allways work but i am making an effort. Karen does all my running around for parts & anything in general even making phone calls , Although i have started to make my own calls to get prices on things instead of waiting for fatty to come home & do it for me..I am lucky as fatty is so strong to keep this family together , Put it this way if fatty died tomorrow my world would completely crash down in a bigger way than before as i would stand to lose my kids as i can't see my family standing in to help out & i have no dout the family services would deem me unfit to care for our kids..& on the progress side of things i now don't suffer depression every second day its only about once a week which is good but still bad as the depression i suffer i get really angry with myself & everyone around me suffers & i get suicidal thoughts not that i would do anything i just mainly wish i was dead sometimes well alot when in a depressed state.... & i don't get as nurvouse as much & i haven't had a panic attack for a long time , Now theres a lot that can set one of those off but the quickest is beleave it or not is the smell of beer or a drunk person. NOW as for trusting people thats something totaly new to me i do not trust any body outside of fatty , But with that said . YES i have made some friends & yes some strong friends BUT remember my little Black book well the names in that & the contact details ARE now what i call my BEST friends i would trust these guys with my life , Now that is a huge statement from me . Now i meen that by if i was working on my car & say i cut a finger off I would panic to no end & if i couldn't get hold of fatty i would ring each of them till i got hold of one of them even though they mite be interstate they could help as i have been told that a masive panic attack could send me into a heartattack, Oh & not because i smoke but because my heart beats so hard it could fail so yes i trust them with my life & use know who use are. i have even spoke in person & on the phone with them..WOW huge improvement from what i was like before "outing" myself..OH & on that other matter (the envolope) its still in the draw & fatty wants to talk to use as we still don't know what to do with it..I was allways belittled in front of people so its hard for me to have a conversation as the way my mind works i have know idea if someone was doing this as it would just feel normall..
The only people that fatty lets take the **** out of me is you guys as she is very protective of that as i dont stand up formyself i just go very quiet & let it go , thinking it was something i did & deserved..

SHAUNH if my story can in anyway help your partner that would be awesome & i hope you can keep posting here & that maybe your partner as well, I would be more than happy to have a chat with her through the net (email) if you think in anyway i mite be able to help her..
I will PM you with some stuff soon..
And i hope you stay in touch through here..

THANKS
Jason & Karen

Well 10 days to go YES its that time of year agian FATTY"S birthday..
She is the only person i know that hates turning a year older & i meen she realy hates it.

So give her heaps (I DO )

Another year older another few wrickles a few more grey hairs..





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thanks ausfree and banjo
i will do all i can to make erickas life easier, ill always be there for here throught thick and thin, sadly i do so much and i cant see much improvement good days can be turned to all time lows in seconds for her shes very sensitive and so am i, i talked to her about emailing you banjo and she said she didnt want to, im not going to push the matter ill try again another time and hope she sees its ok, trust is probably the biggest problem for her and only 2 people in her life know everything thats me and our best firend sandi, sandi is her strongest foundation theyve know each other since they were 3. ill try to get her to see the light that is AULRO and its members to know that people can be so supportive is just great and can not thank you enough banjo. erickas not one to speak openly about her feelings or to anyone shed doesnt know. school is one of the most painful things i can not count how many days i have missed. the school board and principal have bee so supportive and we are in most of the same classes.

once again i can not thank you guys enough

shaun

Hi shaunh yeah never push it only makes things very bad. I used to be pushed by the family & i was realy bad for it & so called friends where the same . The guys on here don't expect of me & do not push me , There for we get on like a house on fire they all make karen & i laugh which is good haven't done that for awhile..
I realy hope Ericka is able to control it at her young age , As it is such a debilitating phobia & stretches friends , Families & relastionships to the brink.I didn't realy want to tell my story but the guys on here are so happy to help when i was having trouble with the car & i had so many offers of to come over & help & i didn't think it right to leed them on so i told my story..
But if you wouldn't mind you could keep me (us) updated on any progress she can make or even her bad days i would like that . She is so young ..

I fully support what Banjo has said, if you can just encourage Ericka to even look at this thread, it might assist her to realise there are other people out there suffering too and just sharing experiences might help. I am not a sufferer by the way, and I am a lot older than Banjo, but if you read the earlier posts on this thread you will see what my experiences have been!!! I am here as a supporter, as I went through a lot of similiar experiences early in my life to Banjo!!

banjo i shall keep you guys updated every week or so with how shes going if i get time with school and everything its pretty cramped up already but ill make an effort to update you.

ausfree ill have a look at your posts soon but for now off to the shed for some much needed landy work

ericka is also good with a spanner from time to time

and some bad news ,my grandfather is back in hospital, had another opperation on his cathida (spelling?) hopefully he recovers soon