Embarrassment

I'M so sorry guys this will be my last post . . .

I have been out the back balling its finaly & just hit me what Karen wants & needs...

Unfortunatly i can't offer Karen full normality ...


& i cant keep doing this to Karen she is to important..

Karen & the kids deserve to live happily & fully & i cant seem to get that right ....

I want to THANK use all for your serport , Advise , help & the mateship made...


It would be so good if i could just crawl into some dark hole & die ..Karen & the kids meen so much to me & i cant get it right thanks to my crappy ****ed up head . . .
All i want is my gorjess great wife to be happy & the kids to . . .


I THANK USE ALL SO MUCH........

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Originally Posted by Ausfree

Banj, I think I am having some computer problems sending EMails, it looks like I am receiving but not sending, I will send you a test message now and if you receive nothing let me know ( hmm, that is a bit of an oxymoron)!!!:confused::)

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Yep got it Aus . . . . .

Just keep doing positive things Banjo. You're doing well.
You can't control the future, or prevent the unexpected, but you can control how you cope with the present, so take control of the present and concentrate on that.
What Karen needs is for you to keep doing positive stuff. This is a great opportunity for you to rise above the past and head into a better future together.

Disappointing, I didn't have Banjo marked as a quitter, Karen deserves a bigger effort than that.

Now give yourself a good hard slap Jason, then get back to what you have been doing for the last two weeks. :mad:

This thread's got a fan club.
You're not allowed to let us down :mad:

Yeah but if i push myself to go to this BBQ i will only make it worse.As they are all big drinkers & trust me once it starts to flow & i get a wiff i'm toast i neary collaps alcohole brings everything back no matter how hard i try to hide it....I don't meen me drinking i don't drink..

Plus i don.t realy want Karen driving to it of a night as she doesn't know the road or even how to get there & i know once she trys to get home she will get lost & i meen no disrespect in that & Karen will tell you the same...& Karens not that keen to go iether but Cody wants to go & she wont let him go with one of the others..


So how do i give Karen normality when i cant even do that for myself & unfortunatly probably never will thanks to agerophobia...........

No i'm not a quiter but i have never been so frightend in my life & i started to have a panic attack the other nite when Karen was telling me she doesn't know if she wants me or wants me to try & work at it....

So why don't you drive them over there, drop them at the party, go off to Maccas for an hour and then come back and pick them up?

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Originally Posted by DiscoMick

So why don't you drive them over there, drop them at the party, go off to Maccas for an hour and then come back and pick them up?

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Sounds good to me!!!!;):)

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Originally Posted by DiscoMick

So why don't you drive them over there, drop them at the party, go off to Maccas for an hour and then come back and pick them up?

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Yeah i would love to but that is way out of my league at the moment ..& i would have to leave before lunch & then hope i don't panic & make things worse....

The worst part of all this is i know my limits & am only just starting to realy push past those limits ........

Well then, drop them off and then go home, then go back and pick them up!!!!!:)