Originally Posted by
banjo
Yep i'm waiting for the step back i know it will come something will set it off & i will take 2 steps back happens all the time just have to deal with it..
BUT on a brighter note i had a huge step forward today i went out but it was with a differance i went on my own i got bored while karen went shopping so i got the rover out & went for a drive ,i only went down the road to cardiff bilo then went round to aldi , i thought if i seen karens car at one of them i would stop & go in but today she desided to shop at glendale,,so i did a few laps of cardiff then came home..i tell ya i couldnt get me head in the door when i got home was on to much of a high..:clap2::arms::burnrubber::banana::banana:
i know its sound dumb but i havent gone out on my own for many years..
maybe i should give this site my medicare number as use have done & boosted my confidance more in just over a week than any shink has done in years.. i stoped seeing them years ago..
the doc says since i dont do well with people inperson that i should try & build some friends over the phone get to trust them & then maybe try & meet or have them over for ten mins & slowly work the time they stay for a vist each time, up till they could stay for an hour ,but that wont work as i hate talking on the phone i wont even talk to karen for more than 5 min at most.....plus when people are here (the little family i see) i keep walking out & in its just a nurvous thing,& i am to embarrest to say to anyone that i am nurvous & its time to go....
i think its just the male thing i have trouble with as most of it came from my father...
KAREN has come up with a novel idea if anyone is interested,I use to text my friend all the time allday till he died ,i still cant belive he went & done that silly old bugga..he was in his 70s i spose..
anyway karen said why not text people for a while see where it gets me & build some friendships build some trust..
as friends & friendship is new to me..it took years to trust old tom before he died..
ALTHOUGH i have started calling all use on here my friends wen i talk to karen bout the site..