Thread: Embarrassment

Originally Posted by Stuuu

Welcome to our world mate.

And as Ian says - you're doing well. Karen not talking lots to you is your new challenge. I for one think you are up to that challenge. Love her to bits - even is she doesn't want to talk much.

We have just been talking & i know what i am asking of Karen to give me another chance..Like she said she doesn't want to open her self to this anymore i Have hurt her to much she does not love me & she does not feel for me at all ......Even when she is better she doubts she will want to or be able to open herself to me . . . . . So i guess it is over & once Karen is better i will be going to the hospital to live so i doubt i will be keeping my car or puter or phone couldn't afford them anyway . . .
But Karen does look a lot better to look at her now .. . .. .

So i guess i will be saying goodbye to most of you if not all of use soon .
Its parthetic to know i cant live on my own or for myself...

I owe Karen so much ,Yes she did save me from a cuicide fate & Karen has made me who i am today she has pulled me through some of the worste crap anyone could go through & i THANK her so much for that ..
I DO KNOW I WOULDN'T LET HER DOWN AGAIN CAUSE EVEN A BAD DAY WILL FEEL LIKE I AM LETTING HER DOWN...& YES I DO KNOW WHAT I HAVE LOST ..

If i don't meet the hospitals reqierments i will have to go back to mums ..

Nothing is ever definite until it happens.

Wait until Karen is back to her normal self and then see how she feels toward you.

I am not saying that she does not know her own mind but from what you have said about how she is now then she is not 100% and so it will take her a while to get back to her normal self.

I for one hope and pray she does for all of your sakes.

Hey what you been upto today aus we never seen you ...

Originally Posted by banjo

Hey what you been upto today aus we never seen you ...

Hey don't worry Aus i been thinking it was thursday all day . . . .

Going to the fang doctor (dentist) at Cardiff this morning for him to have a look at my snappers. A filling fell out last week and it has to be replaced. Appointment at 9.30 and Mrs Aus will leave me there as she has to take her father to the Doctors at Glendale. Will walk home (need the exercise) after a new filling in the fangs!!!

Originally Posted by Ausfree

Going to the fang doctor (dentist) at Cardiff this morning for him to have a look at my snappers. A filling fell out last week and it has to be replaced. Appointment at 9.30 and Mrs Aus will leave me there as she has to take her father to the Doctors at Glendale. Will walk home (need the exercise) after a new filling in the fangs!!!

Your keen

Well i had a bit of a doosy lastnight . I think it realy hit me that Karen wants me gone as soon as she is better & just the stress of it all , My blood presure must of changed & my heart was beeting so so fast i passed out the next thing i know the kids where dragging me up off the floor...

Got out the shower & the same thing happend & i hit the tiles , came to then went & got Karen ready for bed & tucked into bed..

might be time you sort some professional help to mate. Have you ever tried meditation may help you find a happier place for a while to help sort some issues. Like I said earlier my wife had stress for a couple of years and it was very hard on our marriage but come out the other side better than it had been for a long time
cheers
blaze
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hope there is a small step foward today in way or another