Thread: Embarrassment

Originally Posted by banjo

Well i have a few stressfull days ahead of me , I lost an aunty this week Wednesday night . The funeral is this week & it going to be a big turn out & we're going so a little worried as we dont know where it is , could be at Berisfield cremo or worldsend (wallsend) or somewhere in town & i have to get there..She wasnt a real aunt she was my god fathers wife but we where close ..So not looking forward to that..

On a bit of a brighter note the green landy has undergone a bit of a face lift .Ive had this car for 4 years plus the 3 to build it , Ive never had a car that long before so a change was needed .Will post up some pics tonite when i have finished it

Sorry to hear of your loss. Chin up & God bless, John.

On a lighter note, I get a Canoe Paddler's Newsletter by E-mail [paddle.net]. It had a T-shirt for sale which had a Canoe paddle on it and said,

"Paddle Faster, I hear Banjos."

Very Funny

I'm thinking of you and Karen too, mate!!!

Stay strong tomorrow Jas, we are all behind you

Mrs hh

Well went to the funeral today up at Berisfield Cremo..Standing room only , we ended Karen & I standing outside at a side door. Was a realy good service .Seen lots of people that i knew family friends from when i was a kid.Seen some people i have'nt seen for 20 years & seen some i thought had already passed away..

I think alot of people where shocked to see me..

We did'nt see my oldman before the service but seen him after. He was walking around talking to people & ignoring Karen & I to the point it was obviese.So after seeing everyone we wanted to see. I said to Karen come on lets go see the oldman ( Karen was'nt happy about it )..But we did anyway & i tell ya he is a small old man now seems to have shrunk & so has his voice.Didnt really talk much. he was going to ignor us wen we walked upto him so i stuck me hand out & waved in his face as such , Shook his hand & said hey how are ya going he said good , Sad day today & theres not to many of us left. I said the kids where going to come but Cody decided to goto school & Fred decided at the last minute to stay at home. THEN he left in a hurry Karen recons it would of rattled him that i went & SPOKE to him cause he would'nt of expected it..I have'nt seen him since my Grannys funeral i think..
& i think he was very shocked as i have fattend up a bit since then & am covered in tattoos..
Karen said cause i have put on a bit of weight & the tattoos & well i was in me jeans & Johnny REB boots & well i looked like a bikie just a clean bikie..

I think he was worried more then me ..

I was'nt nervous before the day really which is differant.I already knew in my head before going that if he started anything on me i was going to finish it this time no if no buts..

But he is just an old small man with cancer , Looks like a joky with a joky's voice..

I'm not afraid of him anymore..

Like DALE said ... So the tables got turned today ???

I think he may just be right.

But it was real good to catch up with everyone there..

Well Done, Jason!!! You stared down one of your demon's and won......Mate, that is good news, when you started this Thread over two years ago, you would not have done that, now you have built up confidence and looked your father in the face.
Keep going, that is one small step to regaining your confidence!!

Actually, having a further think on this, Jason, that was not a small step but a BIG STEP

Originally Posted by banjo

Well went to the funeral today up at Berisfield Cremo..Standing room only , we ended Karen & I standing outside at a side door. Was a realy good service .Seen lots of people that i knew family friends from when i was a kid.Seen some people i have'nt seen for 20 years & seen some i thought had already passed away..

I think alot of people where shocked to see me..

We did'nt see my oldman before the service but seen him after. He was walking around talking to people & ignoring Karen & I to the point it was obviese.So after seeing everyone we wanted to see. I said to Karen come on lets go see the oldman ( Karen was'nt happy about it )..But we did anyway & i tell ya he is a small old man now seems to have shrunk & so has his voice.Didnt really talk much. he was going to ignor us wen we walked upto him so i stuck me hand out & waved in his face as such , Shook his hand & said hey how are ya going he said good , Sad day today & theres not to many of us left. I said the kids where going to come but Cody decided to goto school & Fred decided at the last minute to stay at home. THEN he left in a hurry Karen recons it would of rattled him that i went & SPOKE to him cause he would'nt of expected it..I have'nt seen him since my Grannys funeral i think..
& i think he was very shocked as i have fattend up a bit since then & am covered in tattoos..
Karen said cause i have put on a bit of weight & the tattoos & well i was in me jeans & Johnny REB boots & well i looked like a bikie just a clean bikie..

I think he was worried more then me ..

I was'nt nervous before the day really which is differant.I already knew in my head before going that if he started anything on me i was going to finish it this time no if no buts..

But he is just an old small man with cancer , Looks like a joky with a joky's voice..

I'm not afraid of him anymore..

Like DALE said ... So the tables got turned today ???

I think he may just be right.

But it was real good to catch up with everyone there..

Do not forget that Jason. You are not afraid of him any more. Do not be afraid anymore.