Sarah, I am deeply sorry for your loss. Although we have never met, I feel (as I am sure all here do) you are a part of the AULRO extended family. Please let any of us know if we can do anything for you.
You are so right, suicide is never an option, and there is always help available for anyone contemplating this destructive act by calling Lifeline on 13 11 14 24hrs a day 7 days a week. Speaking from experience, counselling is essential after the death of a family member, if you are finding it hard to come to terms with this tragedy (feeling of disbelief, feeling numb/detached emotionally) give Lifeline a call 13 11 14 and speak to one of their trained counsellors, they do a great job, and speaking to a counsellor will help immensely through this difficult time.
Once again, please accept my sincerest condolences.
AJ

