Hey Banj, hows it going mate???:)
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Hey Banj, hows it going mate???:)
Well i ran Karen a bath so she is in there with a book & said she would yell when ready to get out. . ..
You realy don't want to know. . I broke down today . . .Quote:
Originally Posted by Ausfree
The thought of loosing Karen & the kids is making me so scared & Karen thinks she is pretty sure she wants to end it as i have taken to much out of her she is completly emotionaly dead she said & has no physical feelings toward me what so ever.....
So i am realy ****ing myself on the inside..Karen is the first person ever to show me anything ,love ,care & just someone who wanted me ,even Karens parent treated me better than anyone has ever before . . .
So the thought of loosing her is realy hard i'm shaking like a leaf on the inside & just keeping it together on the outside . .I never ever thought i would hear Karen say that she hates me ..
And its even worse now as use have explained lots to me & i know what i did do to Karen & what i took from her for years...
I realy do understand now what i have done to Karen . .It took this to happen & use to tell it to me like retard for me to understand what a relationship should be & not one thing i do or say will make a differance to Karen .. .
I can't change the past but i would love to have the chance to make a differance in the future . .BUT KAREN SAYS IT TO LATE i should of done this along time ago on my own instead of use all telling me what was expected of me in this relationship.
I honestly didn't know any differant to what i was doing untill now & i did not delibetly do this ..
Karen is the very first person to care for me to love me & to want to be with me .I do know what i have done & i believe i could keep up with this for Karen ..Karen knows my limits better even i do & what she wants of me isn't much at all...pickup the pamphlets if she is out so she doesn't feel like she has to rush to get them & the same with my smokes .& to make an efort to try & get to some of Cody's footy training & the accasonaly to a home footy game . . & just to help out so she isn't so run down . . .
Banjo, old son, as you sow, so shall you reap!!!;) Listen, if you have treated Karen like **** over the years, what do you expect. I am afraid you do need to tread carefully and as we keep saying, give her space to clear her head and don't be like a little puppy dog hanging around all the time. We all need space, we don't need to control our partners life, let them do their own thing, enjoy their friends company, go shopping, do what THEY WANT TO DO without you hanging around in the background. Mate, seriously, I keep saying this, you do your thing, get a hobby, DO SOMETHING, but don't keep hanging around and bugging Karen.
You two are in that house together, with no escape from each other and I can't believe its taken Karen 23 years to get jack of it. I would have gotten the ****s in 6 months if Mrs Aus kept hanging around me.;) Mate, I am laying this on the line because seriously, I worry about you and you really need Professional advice. Sorry to keep banging on about this, but I am looking in from the outside with a fresh pair of eyes and you either take advice or keep going around in circles with no escape!!!;):)
Banjo, I have a challenge for you, lets push the envelope mate, I will be down at ALL FOUR x4 tomorrow at 8am as you know. I would absolutely love to see you walk in the door. I will only be their for 2 hours while the work is being done on my Freebie, we can sit there and chat or go for a walk. Either way, it gets you out of the house and away from Karen so she can do her own thing!!!!:) The balls in your court, push the envelope, don't let Agrophobia tell you what to do, you tell it what to do!!!:twisted:
Good call Jim.Quote:
Originally Posted by Ausfree
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Originally Posted by Ausfree
Yeah right i have never been there on my own & i defanatly couldn't sit there for any time with out ****ting my self ,Thats even if i made it there. . .
C'mon, Banj, I didn't let Cancer beat me, I went through a major operation along with chemo and radio therapy and it WAS NOT GOING TO BEAT ME, what do you say, do I see you tomorrow!!!:)
Hey Banjo what are the options for a shed/shelter so you can work on the Landie so the you are:Quote:
Originally Posted by Ausfree
1) out of the house, and
2) doing something that interestes you and keeps you busy?
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Originally Posted by Ausfree
I have to be careful if i push to hard the after efects could have Karen telling me to pack my bags & go tomorrow she has to deal with the after efects & sometimes they can be real bad . . .& i don't want to have to see mums house just yet .. . ..