Yes my mother was here this morning.She said hello but didnt even ask how the house hunting is going just said my step father said we should look around garden suburbs,,like we are a pair of retards & wouldnt of looked there,its just the next suburb for those that dont know the area..She was just winjing about how bad they are off...Mind you there big gripe is they want to retirer but they wont cant because they cant get the pension..they own a $700,000 house & own there own bisness PLUMBERS..but today it was how my stepfather spent $7000 on some birds & it looks like he mite have feet & feather disease & now the whole lot of his birds mite get it.Then it was that my sister is so bad off cause 1 of her kids needs braces & its going to cost $10,000...Its funny i asked them a few years ago if i could borrow $20,000 to buy a house the house was $15,000 & the rest was to get us there,it was out in the bush,they said na cant afford it,,no worries didnt bother me..the next week when she was here it all about how my sister couldnt finish her house off they built a new one but had no driveway or floor coverings or any grass ,,so my perants went & out & got them all of that stuff on there bank cards..Because hey they cant live there like that.& they werent in any hurry to get paid back..& yet if i borrowed the money off them i would of had it completely paid back & owned a house in less than 6months..
See they think i am a joke that my mental illness is nothing & i should just go back to working 12 to 18 hr day like i used to & it will just go away.See both our families think where bums & wont work & thats our fault. i woould just about kill to be able to work.Now we never ask for anything dont want for anything..The reson i wont ask someone to help us move or anything is if someone helps & then in a week they say come over & we will have a BBQ or just go to a park with the kids is i feel oblegated to do so & when i cant it makes me feel so bad that karen & i start fighting because i should be doing whatever they want us to do.Thats when i would make excuses as to why we cant go ..The only thing inportant to me is karen & our 2 kids..Not money...But if something goes wrong with familys cars or they need something fixed or just want info guess who they come to for it..I dont do it anymore & i think thats why no one has anything to do with us..Not one of my family have offered to help us with the move,but garanteed once we have moved one of them will want something done for sure...So yeah i am having a bad day i get more ****ed off that i cant control when i will have a bad day they just hit me & the depression sets in & i just have to ride it out..
Think happy thoughts dumb ass think happy thoughts...sometimes it works depends on what i have got aroud to do gives me something else to think about.I do alot of drawing of camper vans or thing to build for my car & if i am lucky i mite have a model to build, finished a big towtruck for trucks about 3 months ago..I also fix the kids bikes & toys & the neighbourhood kids bring me there stuff to fix keeps me busy.Realy need to go for some more little drives but i dont want to use the fuel till after we have moved..








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I have a 1/43 scale model of a Freelander that I bought off Fleabay, cost me $1 for the model and $7 for postage. What do you think, I have other models of cars too!!



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