Thread: Embarrassment

Well I had a MASIVE MASIVE Panic attack lastnight.. I don't know why , I was sitting on the lounge & had enough time to get up & make it to the bathroom where I just about passed out.. I was in cold sweats to the point I was wringing wet inside 5 minutes..Had to get Karen to get me a bucket to sit on & get my head between my legs & deep breathing , had water & a wet face washer to cool me down .. Once I got sitting down in there & breathing it passed , But it was big & I haven't had one like that in I don't know how long. BUT I held it together & calmed myself down reasonably quickly for once .. Once it was over we went to bed which is a first usualy I need to sit around for hours BUT it passed & I was OK for the first time so we had showers & went to bed .. I guess with me talking on here with all you guys has helped & use have all helped me to the point I had it , it passed & I got on with things for the very first time ever.. Other then Karen getting my water & something to sit on I delt with it myself I think & I think I did alright..I didn't like it at all but I beat it & forced it to go I guess as it lasted short & I just got on with it after.. BUT im glad there was no one here to see it as it is emmbaracing I can tell you .. Makes me feel like some small child who is extremely frightened shaking & looking like im ready to pass out .. I realy cant explain how it feels or what it does .I did feel quiet sick with this one though & dizzy thought I was going to crap myself for a bit & breathing is very hard to control but I must of got it under control as it passed & you get like a pins & needles feeling through your whole body & every time you move it gets worse & movement feels very hard to do , I think it lasted maybe 10 to 15 minutes at most all up. NOT HOURS & I didn't feel like I was hiding in the bathroom after it..

Well there you go .

Now for a shower & I think mite just clean the green one up ready to sell or swap.. Actualy Karen said to me yesterday that she was surprised I had'ny swaped it already ..

That must be quite scary. It is good that you got this one under control quickly and got on with your night

Originally Posted by Landy Smurf

Ok so I need some help, your help may or may not make my decision but I am really confused and a few friends on facebook are saying different things to me.
I am not saying everything I did was right, but when feelings get involved sometimes decision making is hard.
Ok so as you know cornelia and I broke up in march and most of you know the circumstances in which things happened.
We had a joint account and I worked it out that in that joint account she had $5000.
Originally she said she didn’t want any because she didn’t deserve it or something after what she put me through.(not really an important point).
I gave her $2000 of the $5000. Those of you who not so great at maths that means I owe her $3000.
My flights cost $2500 and she said she wanted to pay for them after I gave her some money.
I think she should have, because I missed out on uni and was a wreck for a long time where she wasn’t.
That leaves $500 which I was going to use to send her things back to her.
She wants me to send everything of hers back.
I am ok with sending her things back to her. To send everything back to her will cost $1500. I would sooner fly over there and drop off her things to her and pick up a few things of mine and have a holiday.
We barely speak now probably for the last 3 months it has been just when are you sending things etc. Well she has called me many names etc.
One of my friends thinks I should just send all her stuff so she is out of my life etc.
Another thinks try and discussing things with her about how much it will cost
She is supposed to be going to Tasmania for exchange in February so I have suggested sending things to her down there. Most of the things she will just throw out anyway. A lot of clothes and books she has read and won’t read again and was only cheap anyway. And old clothe she rarely wore the whole time we were together.
I probably have left out a few details. But I am really confused about what to do and any opinions would be appreciated even if they are saying I am an idiot do this.

Tony, I don't know the exact circumstances of the split (and don't need to know), but I agree with the principle of sending everything to her, rather than flying over. That way you can close that chapter of your life, no more reminders lying around, just move on with life.

I'm sorry if that sounds harsh, but she sounds like she has very much moved on, and you need to do the same. Holding a candle for her, and wondering about the ifs, buts, and might have beens will do you no good.

Originally Posted by Landy Smurf

That must be quite scary. It is good that you got this one under control quickly and got on with your night

Yeah I still feel crapy today after it..

Been under a bit of stress lately Karen has booked in for her biopsy at the hospital but cant get in for 6 weeks.. & she is still dropping weight alarmingly..
Cody had his formal on Thursday night & one of his mates mums boyfriend is the sargent of arms for the Life & death MC so he organized for them to go on bikes BUt the after party was back at the club house & they stayed there the night. They where drinking BUT not Cody he doesn't drink he is a fitness freak .. I wasn't to happy about it but turned out ok.. I just haven't associated with bikies for years so was jusy worried about him as I know how things can go..
I also thought Karen was getting a little excited about them & being around them.. BUT SOMEONE TOLD ME NO ITS PROBABLY MORE SO THE FACT THAT HER BABY BOY IS GROWING UP.. So was just my head as usual,,. Anyway things went well for them & cody loved going in on the bike as it was his first time on the back of a Harley.. He has been on bikes with me but not a Harley & he loved it.. I will see about getting permission about putting some pics up here for use to look at.. He was looking quiet smartly in his suit ..I have to sell or swap the green car as its just sitting here doing nothing or getting used. I will swap it for anything of interest or sell it.


Dave answered your question perfectly . That's pretty much what I ment but didn't know how to put it in words..

I finaly got around to doing it ..

http://www.aulro.com/afvb/swap-trade...ies-3-lwb.html

How about a nice 1954 Massey Ferguson tractor Jason ??

I am sure you will get something good for it

Originally Posted by jerryd

How about a nice 1954 Massey Ferguson tractor Jason ??

HHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMM


Now that's something I haven't owned yet..