Thread: Embarrassment

Originally Posted by banjo

Damn pamphlets i still got about 2000 to go . . . .

Are you folding them for maximum delivery efficiency............

Well i got about half an hour left to go on the pamphlets . Then up to pickup the papers..
Got the kids ready for school done there lunches packed way to much for them again . .
Karen is still in bed I will get her up later & take her for a drive while i get the papers maybe just to get her out .
She got to sleep about 1 this morning still felt sick from her tablets & she slep ok till about 7.30 & then got up to goto the loo & back to bed . .

I was folding pamphlets till 12 lastnight then went & just laid with karen till she went to sleep .....
Cody has footy training this arvo but i couldn't sit there once i got him there & i don't want Karen to take him so i have organised for him to get a lift this week with the coach as he lives around the corner from us & the kids will be stoping in on the there way home from school to see about him taking him for me , He plays at stockton this weekend & Karen realy wants to go as she like to watch him play all the time & its the final knockout game for them if they win they make it to the grandfinal so if she is some what better she can go if not the coach will have to take him...Thats the best i can offer at the moment unfortunatly . . .

keep your chin up. In time Karen will get better if that is the correct diagnosis.

Well had a major achievment today, Had to do the papers well i went got them with Karen & we WALKED them yes i walked we only have our street to do now & throw the pamphlets later this arvo or tomorrow Karen said..
Went to the camping shop this morning to look at a new swag as i sold mine & i realy want to get another one before i get my marching orders which i don't think will be to much longer coming EVEN Karen is worried that her feelings will come back for this other guy & its pretty hard not to run into him down the road so she is staying as far away as posable but its hard as we are or she is always down there....
Karens feeling a little sick from her tablet now so we just resting her for a while then we are going to do the rest of the papers i was going to do them by myself but she said if i do them now she will come . . . .

I feel so bad for Karen as her head is all over the place & that i have made her have no feelings for me at all. the feeling is so bad & she has no idea what to do the same as me..

She telling me that she is going to take Cody to training so i not going to say anything just be happy for her to do it...

Karen feels i'm pushing her & i don't meen to i just like her company & i want to spend the time with her while she is like this & to top it off she feels like she is useing me because she doesn't know what the outcome will be & we mite go our own ways (GOD I HOPE NOT THAT FRIGHTENS ME SO MUCH) But i want to help her & hold her & care for her as she has for me ....

Trying to find things to do to keep my crappy mind working against me so i can give Karen time on her own don't have the shed to go & tinker in anymore, if i was able to go out more on my own i would go over to Aus's to say g'day.....

Thursday is our big shopping day this week good pay week so Karen will be down the road for quiet some time & i am worried that she will run into him & she is worried about it aswell . . ...

ITS So HARD THE KIDS AREN'T SURE WHATS GOING ON .

I have to put some oil in my car as its down , will have to do those valves soon they leak the oil & sometimes off we go in a clowd of smoke....& i need to put some coolant in it as its only water at the moment. . .

If i sit around to long my head seems to do me in a lot at the moment & i wont tell Karen .....

I HATE MYESLF SO SO MUCH NOW FOR DOING THIS & MAKING KAREN FEEL THIS WAY . . .I HAVE KNOW IDEA AS TO WHAT TO DO ANYMORE , I JUST WANT TO SEE KAREN SMILE & HAPPY & HER BUBBLY SELF & TO BE ABLE TO JUST CHAT & LAUGH BUT EVEN SO IF THINGS WORK OUT WE BOTH KNOW ITS GOING TO BE AWKWARD BETWEEN US ABOUT HER FEELINGS...
I THINK IT WILL PASS WITH ME CAUSE IF I WIN HER BACK PROPERLY THEN THIS OTHER BLOKE WONT DO A THING WHEN KAREN IS NEAR HIM CAUSE SHE WOULD ONLY FEEL FOR ME AGAIN ?????????......






CRAP I AM SO FRIGHTEND ITS KILLING ME TO SEE KAREN LIKE THIS SHE IS SUCH A STRONG PERSON & FOR ME TO HAVE CAUSED ALL THIS & TO HER OF ALL PEOPLE IS SO WRONG...

**** I MISS HER SO MUCH IN EVERYWAY . . . . . . . .



I AM TRYING TO KEEP POSATIVE FOR BOTH OF US I REALY AM.....

If Karen went with this tattoo guy, I hope she realises that he would only be hers until another girl with nice breasts comes in to get a tattoo on her breast also.

Relationships like she is dreaming of rarely last.

Originally Posted by JohnF

If Karen went with this tattoo guy, I hope she realises that he would only be hers until another girl with nice breasts comes in to get a tattoo on her breast also.

Relationships like she is dreaming of rarely last.

Agreed. If he's willing to dump his wife and kid now, what's he going to do in a couple of years.... Or even months?

Originally Posted by JohnF

If Karen went with this tattoo guy, I hope she realises that he would only be hers until another girl with nice breasts comes in to get a tattoo on her breast also.

Relationships like she is dreaming of rarely last.

He isn't interested he is married with a very sick child & he doesn't feel anything for Karen except maybe a friendship......

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