Embarrassment

**V8Ian** · 9th August 2010, 09:03 AM

Originally Posted by V8Ian

Stop thinking negative and just be the best person you can be. Trust takes time, but will slowly be built, sneaking up so that one day it will be there 100%. You have enough real problems to deal with, without creating troubles that are not there, or just may happen. Every one has recognised the enormous effort you have put in, keep trying mate, you are moving forward. You have people all over the world (literally) wanting to see a happy result. I know sometimes it feels like you're driving through mud on H/Ts, 50 kph on the speedo but only doing 5kph, but it's still moving. I have faith in you Jason.

Mate, focus on the real problems; you're wasting time on imagined and percieved problems, time that could be spent on actual problems. Karen has been honest about her feelings, she won't stop being so with the neighbour or anyone else. C'mon Jason, pick yourself up by the bootstraps and chip away at the real problem, we know you can do it, you know you can do it, no one believes it will be simple though.

You said you enjoyed last week, that's only the beginning mate.

**JohnF** · 9th August 2010, 12:28 PM

Originally Posted by V8Ian

I think this is very apt Jason.

Bear Attack in Churchill, Manitoba, Canada..

These are pictures of an actual polar bear attack.

The pictures were taken while people watched and
Could do nothing to stop the attack!

Reports from the local newspaper say that
The victim will make a full recovery.

The photos are below.

May your troubles always be smaller than
you imagine!!

I really like this one and am going to e-mail it to friends who are not forum members. Its a valuable lesson for all of us, Johnf.

**banjo** · 9th August 2010, 06:14 PM

Well i went out on my own again & got the pamphlets & took a DVD back then came home & we folded the pamphlets & got them delivered aswell...

Yes i am have trouble with the feelings isue as Karen has been my everything for the last 23 years the only thing the poor woman hasn't had to do is whipe me ****ing ass... ...You don't think how much i like knowing what i have done in the past everything i am i owe it to Karen fully...
Now when someone tryes to chat Karen up i **** i know that anyone else could & can offer her compered to what i do what i am ..Completely normal men have so much to offer her & it frightens me to death .And i want so much better for her & the kids (normality) ..

I will get over it & i will deal with it . And i will learn to let her go for her days out & to the gym . Because i want to make her happy .. I will be ok tomorrow after her tattoo & Karen will come home & tell me everything what was said & what they chated about as thats what Karen does & i love to listen to her stories of what went on i always have cause i love to see her excited , Happy & laughing while she tells me ..she is worried about tomorrow as well cause she tells me she feels like an idiot & very embarrest about it .....

AND I MOST OF ALL KNOW KAREN CHOSE ME OVER ANYONE ELSE SO I WILL BE OK & I WILL BE SUCKING IT UP TO SEE HER HAPPY ..

Karen know what i'm like & will work through it with me so i don't make her cry anymore & i want her to have her time with friends & at the gym ..

Use can help me with that & take my mind off such things ...

AUS i will get to your place by myself oneday its just i wont be able to stay for awhile but once i have done it a few times it will get better & i mite even stay for a cuppa of tea not your coffee crap . . . ..

Karen has told me she doesn't want to try anymore & she isn't strong enough to go through it again & it kills me to hear it..

I love Karens company & to just chat with her & i cant she doesn't want it .

she wants to be left alone so i'm sitting here listening to music on my phone so as i leave her alone , its hard to watch her & the kids laughing & not be able to join in & make her laugh....

I relie on karen to much & i know this is all my fault & i want to fix it properly & make her happy . . ..
I don't want to go back to my mothers cause i can't even go for a shower with out her walking in theres no privacy what so ever plus worse crap ..
I don't want to go back go back to my Fathers & be in his incest crap & i would be pushed so hard to get out & work & then he they would take it anyway . .
So my othe i'm going to try my guts out to fix this for Karen & the kids although the kids still drive us mad at the moment....
I would just love to sit & chat with Karen about anything or anyone . neither of us have anyone to talk to so i just spill on here but poor Karen has no one except Vickie but she is my cousin & Karens best friend so she feels bad for both of us & doesn't want to interfeer....

And i probably shouldn't post up so much but hey i gotta get it out of my head someway....

I can't cheer Karen up anyway which is bad cause we used to laugh & muck around together & kills me that i can't help but to make her cry i want to make her smile & laugh....

My mother called in today as she does every monday before she goes ten pin bowling & all she was worried about was getting freezer from aldi & how she would get it into the car.. Completely not interested in our struggles & she thinks if i go back to her place she can get the careres pension to look after me but she wont do anything for me at all she's all about the money..

I miss my lovely Karen very much ...

DiscoMick · 9th August 2010, 06:34 PM

So, tell me again why you're thinking about going back to your parents' places?
Stop thinking like a victim. You're not a victim - you're in charge of your life.
Just focus on the best of the present and making it even better.

**WhiteD3** · 9th August 2010, 06:56 PM