Thread: Embarrassment

Originally Posted by seano87

Jase, having always kept an eye on how you've been going throughout this thread, and admiring the guts and courage you must have to have even started this in the first place, I thought maybe it was time for us all to think back, and given the rough week or so you've had, and now a few steps forward are happening again, for you to reflect on just how far you've come since the start of the year.

Mate, seriously, I think you're a hell of guy, and I have sincere admiration of just how well you've managed to take a crap situation, and been able to look for some positives, take it one step at a time and from what I've read, make real inroads to turning your life around into something meaningful.

I'm really proud of the way it sounds like you've worked your way through the last week or so, and at the end of the day, I think you have realised what you and Karen have got is worth fighting damn hard for.

I've had the week from hell at work etc this week, but this thread helped remind me the best way forward is one step at a time, and eventually things start to improve.

Jason, as far as I'm concerned, you're a bloody legend, and I reckon you could do anything if you want it bad enough.



Ahh.. and I just realised, this is post #500 for me. I don't usually post unless I have something meaningful to say, and I think this was quite fitting in a way.

Thanks Sean & thanks everyone , its been interesting to say the least this thread.
I know Karen hates me & i'm pretty sure that she feels the same way about me as some of use have said in the past we love ya jas in a blokey kinda way unfortunatly thats about as deep as it goes now. I know i have let Karen down in the past & unfortunatly i will probably do it again not as bad i garente but it will happen...She does not belive me & now has no trust in me , We now have no physical effection in our relationship & Karen has said that she doubt it will be there for quiet some time if ever & that sux as thats what we had....It used to be like i was going to bed with someone who slept nekid now its like going to bed with someone who wares a suit of armor & its been like that for a while , I don't hate , rezent or disrespect Karen for this.I do however HATE ,REZENT & DISRESPECT myself for this as Karen is the person who has done everything for me in the past & the only person to make me happy in bad times...
I can't wait till the day they workout how to do brain transplants i recon i would be there so fast & get a proper one that works the right way...

There realy is so so so much you guys don't know about what i have done to Karen cause of this problem of mine & just some of the things it actualy does to me ...

Stop thinking negative and just be the best person you can be. Trust takes time, but will slowly be built, sneaking up so that one day it will be there 100%. You have enough real problems to deal with, without creating troubles that are not there, or just may happen. Every one has recognised the enormous effort you have put in, keep trying mate, you are moving forward. You have people all over the world (literally) wanting to see a happy result. I know sometimes it feels like you're driving through mud on H/Ts, 50 kph on the speedo but only doing 5kph, but it's still moving. I have faith in you Jason.

Banjo, I think you're exaggerating the negatives and understating the positives.
Remember, fears about the future are not real, and need never be.
Positives about the present are real now, so focus on them.
Its too late to change the past, but we can change the present, which will eventually improve the future.

Originally Posted by banjo

I can't wait till the day they workout how to do brain transplants i recon i would be there so fast & get a proper one that works the right way...

When they do can you save one for me? Cos the difference between you and most others on the forum is that you tell us how your feeling but the rest of us will almost always keep it to ourselves. There are many days when there are things in my head that make it a hard day.

Only yesterday seano87 said

Originally Posted by seano87

I've had the week from hell at work etc this week, but this thread helped remind me the best way forward is one step at a time, and eventually things start to improve.

All of us need to keep moving one step at a time and deal with things as they come up.

However no matter how you feel please keep posting to let us know where you're at.

As others are saying, Banjo, focus on the positives and move forward with them.

Originally Posted by banjo

There realy is so so so much you guys don't know about what i have done to Karen cause of this problem of mine & just some of the things it actually does to me ...

I don't know but I can guess Been where you think Karen is a number of times over the years. Been told by SWMBO I'd be better off out of here too many times to count!

But from experience I know that there's a lot of people out there far worse off than you, me, Karen or my Mrs. Life's hard, the challenges and choices in life are confusing, tempting, fraught with risk and bloody heart ache.

Karen's got to have a life outside of the house, some interests that's her's alone. That's not an easy thing to do but she's got to do it. You on the other hand, have to keep working at this thing and not give up.

I'll share something with you that helps me stay grounded. One of my main occupations is to ensure (try to anyway) that my boys don't pick up anxiety "habits" from SWMBO. So I take them out, introduce them new things, places, experiences, encourage them to work things out, explain why people do things and why they don't, choice and consequence. Normal stuff Dad's do I suppose. Every few weeks we see my nephew who's now 11. His Father (my younger brother) died when the boy was 4. You can see the sadness in his eyes and his Mum's............and I think me and SWMBO have problems? Hardly!

I guess I'm trying to come up with something profound to say but that'll never happen All I can say is that both of you have to keep working at your problems. The alternatives, if you think them through are not good.

......and one last thing Jason........The odd paragraph would be helpful. I had to read your recent posts 5 times to get it right Ron, where r ya???

Jas the offers always there, you've only got to pick up the phone

Well guys i went & watched cody play footy today for the first time this year & the last time this year, the last few games before the grandfinal are away..

Karens off to the wallsend winter fair tomorrow for a while on her own with no kids...

GUYS this will be my last post for awhile . I will keep up with everything to improov on things & win Karen back, i will drop in & have a read sometimes .
ITS just not to much fun without Karen interested or reading stuff as well . I'm realy lost at the moment & missing Karen to no end . i realy don't want to bore use with the trivial crap in my life its like i said theres so so so much i haven't told use .(not about Karen & i ) its just my problem & what it does & has done to Karen & there are a few things that just wont change for a very very long time unfortunatly..

SO everyone take care drive safe work safe live safe...

AGAIN Thankyou to everyone from us both.

I shall see yas when i see yas or chat with yas when i chat with yas...