I can honestly say none of us here ever rearly like or enjoy Xmas..Been like that for every.The KIDS are the ones that have missed out the most cause its been like it since they where born..ITS just OUR families.Cause to all of our families mine & Karens I DONT have a problem its just all in my head & im just all full of bull**** theres nothing wrong with me..So we hate this time of year..When we went to the funeral & i said that i was fine & if my father started anything i was going to finish it no IFS NO BUTS..
He is the sort of person who would start something at a thing of importance.He would get you a side & say stuff then get you so burd up so you say something or go off THEN he would go back to everyone & say **** dunno whats wrong with him only went over to say G'day..He make himself look the best guy in thw world to everyone else..When i had my 21st birthday he put on a surprise party (which i knew about) then probably halfway threw it while karen & i where siting there eating he came & sat in front of us with his plate mind you he was ****ed before the party started well he lifts his foot & puts his heel in me groin not hard & probably just mucking around (in his mind that would be mucking around) WELL i said hey be frigging carefull well that was it he threw his plate FULL of food all over the table where they set out my pressents & covered everything in food & knocked a candle over which burnt what was'nt covered in food.THEN said get outside so we goes outside so he can realy abuse me & had me in tears while some people where still turning up then he gets me inside & keeps going & keeps going on about how i would'nt work in an iron lung & wanting to belt the **** outa me .Then we could have a beer he used to say..Karen & i where to be MARRIED a few months after & had put our deposites on all the stuff for the wedding & reception well after my 21st Karens family which where at my 21st said well if he's going (my father ) then we are'nt which i cant blame them..Well use all know me buy now & i dont like crowds & i realy dont like speaking to crowds well that didnt matter he MADE me make a speach to everyone there ...GGGGRRRRRRRR
When the kids where young he expected us to still run after him at Xmas .& to me it was easier for them to come see the kids as we would have to load the kids & there prezzies in the car & unload them everywhere we went so the kids could show off what they got like most kids want to .Well i thought it would be easier to just have the grandparrents come to see us as they only had to get themselves in the car PLUS i have 2 sets of parents to go see plus Karens parents..Well that just wasnt on he was to good for that..
Its funny i am the only one who doesnt go see him & i have the problem BUT he still gets everyone to run after him & they all do then complain about it.& its even worse with him now he has cancer (mellinoma) he dieing every year for the last 10 years so he now gets step mum to ring everyone aw it could be his last Xmas so everyone runs to him then after xmas by mirrical he's still here & doing fine..
They dont ring us anymore.But **** i tell ya he has a good winge about us , so everyone says..Funny thing is no one ever says anything to him.No one said anything to him at my 21st while he was going on & abusing me..
I remember we used to invite em over for T sometimes & there was this time they came over & Karen went to heaps of trouble for T got all the stuff he like & spend most of a day arvo prepairing it , they turned up & didnt even end up eating as he got the ****s with one of me step sisters & threw em all the the car & said **** this where going home..Karen was dumb founded as she had cooked so much food that he likes to eat & we had all this food left over , gees the dog ate well for a week..
Like i said we moved out at 18 i still felt i had to run after him for so long & would go there every day to every second day till i was about 27..
This is what he carried on like for all my life till i stoped going there..When i said i was moving out i remember his exact words aslong as its not that bitches idea he said..
I wrote a mini off & was sent to work with broken ribs .When i got to work the boss said hey wheres ya car i told him what happed , he said go home ya not working & posably hurting yourself more & then need compo..So they took me home in one of the trucks when it went out on a delivery. So when i gets home he says what the hell are you doing home so told him what they said to me & so on..his words where well the bitch aint coming over while ya off then..
Hurt me back once at work cant remember how wasnt seriouse but but told to take a few days off..He went right off again over that , but it was fine to help him pull a gearbox outa me sisters mini..
I remeber buying our first car together Karen & I. well i brought the car from a caryard near his work But i didnt trade my car we just brought it..So when i picked it up i left my car at his workplace so he could drive it home as i had to pick him up everyday anyway..well that went down bad as i brought a car without him knowing & i left him my car to drive home.& we only brought a peice of **** anyway we was told for ever..Then when i was selling my onther car an old AP6 val. i was working on my sisters car with him & i sliced me finger bad enough to need stitchers so Karen i headed to the hospital to sit for ever to get it stitched up , Well that didnt happen as he rang the hospital & they told me i had to ring home so i did.He said where going out & someone rang about ya car so ya better get home to show em..So we left no stitches..
Karen was the one who diognosed my problem after ready a big story on a lady who going threw the same things as i was suffering.The docs didnt know what was wrong with me for some time they thought it was ullsors & my oldman said there just worry ullsors youll be fine..Then when my doctor diognosed me with agoraphobia my oldman was bull**** its all just in ya ****ing head theres nothing wrong with you ..
So yeah we hate this time of year bigtime..Worste part is our kids have been the ones who have suffered the most as the parents wouldnt come at Xmas for ages , now they do but the kids are grown now..
All the parents thought the same as oldman as he bashed it into them aswell..
Ahwell thats just our ****ty life.Everything is going down hill for us at the moment & have had a lot go wrong for us in the last couple of months & seems to be getting worse everyday..
Mostly having trouble with the owner & the realestate . Thats one of the biggest reasons that the wagon had to go .I would of loved to keep it..
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