Karen tells me i am still up in her face & she feels i am still pushing her ..I do not meen to i just want to talk to her , she is all i have had to talk to for 23 years & i love talking to her. . When i wake her up i talk to her & when i put her to bed i talk to her & just in general i talk to her . ..
So i guess i realy am a ****up to her & more trouble than i'm worth & i still manage to **** her off ....
I miss having her to talk to about anything & everything. . . .
I still cant open myself up to tell all use everything that has happend to me or what i go through as it is very hard to talk about, but with Karen it is differant . . ...
I am trying my guts out to proove to Karen that i wont let her down & that she can trust me to keep at this..I will slow down once everything is ok if it works out as Karen hates that i am doing everything..The only thing Karen has asked me to do is help out a bit by picking up my smokes occationaly & if she forgets something say grab your bag i will run you down or even just go myself if i can & get the papers sometimes when she is out so she doesn't have to hurry or worry about them.& when posable maybe do something for myself...BUT i have to give her her space & i seem to **** that up bigtime..& i have to amuse myself more so that Karen doesn't feel she needs to be at home with me ........So she hasn't realy asked much of me concidering what she has done for me......& she needs to do somethings on her own with out me or the kids..& she doesn't have to worry about me at home , & i have been trying to get her to not worry about me at home anymore ..I do have lots that can be done here its just not having the shed to work in anymore & thats playing bigtime on both of us as i used to spend lots of time in the shed on my own & Karen could just sit & watch a movie if she wanted....BUT here that doesn't happen....
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