Thread: Embarrassment

Originally Posted by V8Ian

Karen's feeling mixed up and tired. Another bloke has caught her eye at a time when she is totally frazzed, he looks attractive, fault free rah rah rah. Again, in LR parlance, when your rolling round in six inches of sloppy mud on a cold wet night, trying to repair your Series so you can get your family home, a passing Rav 4 looks mighty attractive. Down the track, after the Landy's fixed, the sun's shining brightly, you've had a shower and the family are happy, which is the car you want, not the Tojo.
Some guy has turned Karen's head because he seems to be a Rav 4, she is surprise and confused by her feelings, and beating herself up over it. Keep plugging away Jason, you can do it.

Wasn't sure how to put it Jason but that's what I wanted to say. "Grass is always greener on the other side of the fence" - been through it myself in one way or another.

Thanks Ian.

Well got up & got the kids ready for school Done some washing & hung it out . Kids left i put another load of washing on then loaded the car with the pamphlets ,Once done i left & left Karen in bed done the pamphlets then went down the road to pickup some scripts from the chemist i rang them so i didn't have to wait for them as all our scripts are there on file .Then went to aldi to get some bread came home put the last load of washing on the line , made a cuppa for me & Karen then went & got her up about 10.30 & i left about 8.30......Nothing left to do today so i mite go & get some mower fuel Then have some lunch as i haven't been eating to well only eating tea ,Then i mite mow the lawn or i mite do it while Karen is shopping tomorrow that way i will be busy & keep my crappy mind busy..

Bloody hips are sore as today so are the tops of me arms....






















See i told use that excersize isn't good for you .......

Originally Posted by banjo

Well got up & got the kids ready for school Done some washing & hung it out . Kids left i put another load of washing on then loaded the car with the pamphlets ,Once done i left & left Karen in bed done the pamphlets then went down the road to pickup some scripts from the chemist i rang them so i didn't have to wait for them as all our scripts are there on file .Then went to aldi to get some bread came home put the last load of washing on the line , made a cuppa for me & Karen then went & got her up about 10.30 & i left about 8.30......Nothing left to do today so i mite go & get some mower fuel Then have some lunch as i haven't been eating to well only eating tea ,Then i mite mow the lawn or i mite do it while Karen is shopping tomorrow that way i will be busy & keep my crappy mind busy..

You're doing well mate.

Originally Posted by V8Ian

You're doing well mate.

Sook

Originally Posted by banjo

Well i haven't been back very long Karen fell asleep out the front verander so i took off & went & delivered the last of the papers on FOOT by myself ...
When i came back to get some more papers Karen was awake so she just came for a walk with me while i did the last few around the block...Just have to throw the pamphlets tomorrow morning . . .
That wont take long . . . .
I recon i'm gunna be sore soon though . . . . .

Done the oil in my car it was down a bit this time better check every couple of weeks i think....

We all need to be getting some exercise, not just sitting around at home. And walking is a good excercise.

Originally Posted by banjo

Bloody hips are sore as today so are the tops of me arms....

See i told use that excersize isn't good for you .......

Exercise regularly and after a while you will not notice it.

OK guys this WILL be my last post for sure..

I have been chatting with Karen today & she is so scared that her love & efection wont come back for me at all & she feels as though she is useing me . .I say not as i want to help her....

The thing is she says if i was to go with them to this BBQ & i was acting all good she still couldn't because after 23 years its ingrained in her she says & i can understand what she is saying & the after efects it would have on us would be even worse her words & i do know this....

The pressure use put on me is good but it is starting to take some out of me & i know all of use meen well dont be offended.

But if i do push myself to far it will end it all for us ( me )...

Now i will try & win Karen back as much as i can...

I have ruined Karen over 23 years & wasted all this time for her & both the kids to the point that if we don't work it out i will never see any of them again..

Use have to understand something , If we go separet ways I can't live on my own cause i will panic & a few other problems Plus on my pension i couldn't aford to rent anywhere here & live or eat or pay any bills..
If i go back to my mothers place its the same but even worse & both of us know what will happen..
Karen will worry about me on my own or at mums for other reasons , The kids would allways be scared to stay with me as i mite come to depend on them & i realy don't want to **** them up anymore than i have already thats not what they think thats what we think..

But i wont be giving up at all . . .

They all meen so much to me & i will always fight for them till my last breath.. But in saying that i only want them all to be happy & i have no worries in doing this & loosing everything aslong as they are happy..If this does happen i wont have internet or my mobile as the three phones are in my name i would have to declare bankrupt again to pay them out . . .

Karen still thinks of the other guy sometimes she told me & that scares us both.. Karen doubts her feelings or love for me will come back & i cant hold a gun to her head & say that she has to..But i have told her i will still be trying to win her over & i will be staying till she is well what ever the outcome should be .. . . ..

I have come to except this if it does happen i'm hoping not but i have to think of this..

I will be telling Micayla today about Karens feelings as she is trying so hard to understand what is going on & keeps telling i dont understand what is going on or what its about she is real scared , But Cody being Cody is worried but still in his own little world carefree as long as he is running around somewhere with a ball..

So thats it up till now .

I will still be keeping up with what i am doing , I don't think Karen wants me to go shopping with her tomorrow i would like to so i could keep her away from GGrrrrrr........But i wouldn't do that to her..

Its like Karen has said with all i have been doing after 23 years she should be able to tell if she had feelings for me .....I said no i have ruined you & its like we are starting over again i have to earn your love & feelings & heart .But Karen says she doesn't know if she wants to start over or even try & open herself up to me again & that kills me ..BUT I WONT GIVE UP THEY ALL MEEN TO MUCH TO ME ........But i mite not have a choice Karen told me & its not going to work if its only me that wants it to....

There is nothing on this earth that would make or change my feelings or my love for Karen & this worries her she thinks she should be the same but everyone is differant..MY love for Karen is so deep & so strong it will never change & i couldn't handle it later on when she does find someone else & she will because she is such a beautiful woman on the inside & out with the biggest heart i have ever known.......

Sorry if this is all abit jibberish . . .
I will be canceling my subscription to the thread as its getting very hard for me to post now. . . That way it wont come up in my emails.

Just know that i'm doing everything i can to make Karen happy . . . . .

OH & NO I HAVEN'T RESINDE MYSELF TO THIS HAPPENING AT ALL

I WONT GIVE UP ..

& i'm not going to.

Don't ring me guys i wont answer if your lucky i mite text use back..

Take care everyone & drive safe if use are on the road....





THANKYOU to each & every one of use for the help surport & pushing.....& the mateship & friends we have made..