Thread: Embarrassment

You can't change the past, but you can change the future.
You can't expect Karen to forget anything from the past or to tell you now she trusts you about the future. It doesn't matter how many times you ask, she can't say that. Only time can achieve that.
You've come a long way. That's great. You're on the right path now. Keep going.
Your future is up to you - no-one else. You don't need permission or approval from others.
I believe you can do it, but it's up to you.

Originally Posted by Stuuu

That is a question that only Karen can answer.

For the past two weeks or more there has been no way that she could answer it as she has been over-tired or stressed or depressed or had a break down or whatever. Even today you have posted that she does not really feel anything about the kids. Maybe I am wrong but to me that says she is still not 100%. So it will take time for her to get to the point of really knowing how she would like to answer that question.



I know you did not ask me but anyone who owns up to doing wrong things in the past and says sorry for them and really wants to stop doing them and make an improvement in the future - then I am honoured to be called their friend.

I hope we are.

I real realy do want to stop doing what i have done in the past ..It realy sunk in today while i was in the vegie garden after chatting with Karen it realy hit me what i have done to Karen ..& i never seen it when Karen was telling me all this over the years so that makes me feel even worse..

I'm so lost & lonely....

Ha i just realised i'm now a topic toaster woo hoo.....

Just wish i could die now that would fix everything for everyone ..I can't go back to what I cam from & i know i would only last a few weeks ....

I hate seeing Karen like this we all miss her being herself kids are starting to get worried to now . . .

But i do have to slow down some before i make it worse around here .

If i use a rope that will slow me down some. . .. .

Make some phone calls mate to the people that have been suggest in earlier posts, you dont have to leave the house, just have a breif chat on the phone to them, maybe able to also comunicate through email or such like in this day and age.
hoping your tommorrows are better than your yesterdays
cheers
blaze

Please call 13 11 14 NOW!

Jason, stop feeling sorry for yourself. By your own admittion you've been a * ri ck to Karen for 23 years. Do you really expect her to have confidence that overnight you've suddenly changed? She has to protect here own sanity, and you've tested that to the limit. Karen has offered you an opportunity, you can stay and she'll be your carer. Get your act together and take your lumps. If you do the right thing, Karen will come to realize that that you have changed, it may take a couple of years or more, you can't undo 23 years of **** in 5 minutes. Cut the crap and death talk, that's demonstrating regression, not that you are moving forward. All this talk of death is emotional blackmail, not the preferred method of cementing a loving, caring relationship. Stop wasting time worrying about having to live at one of your your parents places and get Karen better, that's going to show Karen you have changed, just don't expect it to happen next week. Learn to show her some love, maturity and patience.

just think about your kids at least how will they feel if you kill yourself i know after my incidents that it is a selfish act even if you think your doing what is best for everyone