Thread: Embarrassment

Originally Posted by schmierer LR at singleton

hey jason what is the latest,how is your depression and are you having any more suicidal thoughts

Yep still there i just keep pushing them to way back in my head..

Poor Cody came up here with me yesterday .He was ok for a little while Then the poor bugga got nervous away from mum so we ended up ringing Karen & she came & got him..Then he felt so bad & was very upset..
If i do see them it will only be for a day . But they are having so much trouble with the split its not funny..Cody & i haven't been close he has always been mums boy so its hard for him to be away from mum...
Micayla has her own life now & is always out with friends to the beach or just hanging around down Cardiff probably smoking....
Plus they know home is a safe place for them so i doubt i will see them much at all plus mum is there who has alway been there for them all the time to help comfort them & to sit with them while they were sick...

If it gets to hard for the kids i am going to surrender them as i dont want Fred to go back to panic attacks & be at home & cody will end up that way aswell as he is just natualy a nervous kid...

I will always LOVE Karen i will never get over her nor will i ever find another woman as i dont go out to do those things like pubs & clubs..

I will just stay here & pine for her as such.....

I been out today got myself a chopping board & a half loaf of bread & a tea cake..

But now back here just finished spreading a load of top soil around for them & came in to look up the RTA to do the address change..
But checked my mail first & had replys here so i will do that now ..

Been pretty panicy here all day so far....

your not the only one who has been having a hard time lately,i must admit your conditions are alot worse though

Don't assume the worst or be in too big a hurry to cut off contact with your kids. Just be cool and hasten slowly...

yeah we will see ..

i recon this thread is going to die in here i dont usualy come in the soap box much mainly go into the general part or series bit..Plus my net is so slow it times out alot & boots me...Got our payments sorted out today & we now have our own bank accounts & pays Karen went off the carers pension & is now on new start allowance.. I dont have a carer now...& we have changed just about all of my stuff to the new address ....& number i now only have a mobile..So i seriousely doubt we are going to get back together..

I'm trying not to think of it but its hard after 23 years & being around the kids everyday since birth...I MISS THEM ALL...

I dont think the kids are to comfortable coming here as my parents haven't had anything to do with them si its hard for them as they are here..

& now my mother told Karen today that she picked a bad time to do this as she is going into hospital to get her knees reconstrucked & my step father is going into have his shoulder reconstrucked so there just worried about that..in other words Karen should of waited till they had those done as they dont need another kid or retard to look after...

Hi Jason
I get a bit ****ed off every time you call yourself a retard, you are far from that and have proven that many times, Things like your ability to do a makeover on the series, I and many others would be proud to drive that. You have been an excelent parent to your kids giving sound advice to them and the list goes on. ATM you are in a trouble time, but whatever the outcome may be you still have 2 kids that look up to you and a full and meaniful live ahaed of you. The only person stopping that is you, time to man up, seek some help other than the forums. We all have moments in our life when we are dealt a cruel blow, yours ATM will be worse than some but better than a lot of others.
Stay safe, stay in touch and seek some help because until you love yourself others will not
cheers
blaze

yeah but only a dickhead would treat the woman he loves as bad as i have so yeah i'm a spastic for that..

& look at everything i have lost for it..