Thread: Embarrassment

Ringing Lifeline was a good thing to do, so do it whenever you need to talk to someone non-judgmental.

Originally Posted by Rod 46

Hi banjo

Don’t do it for Aus…do it for yourself…. Small steps in the right direction.

It was for myself i was just being a smartass to Aus cause he was on my back most about it ,& i tell you he is a heavy old bugga to..

Originally Posted by banjo

Hey Aus i did something for you last week i rang LIFELINE for you ..I just said i wanted someone to talk to & ended up just chatting to some lady for a little while ..Emptyed my head thats about all .....

HI Jason, sorry I haven't been around for a while but like a lot of your friends on this thread, unfortunately we don't have the time to be here every night. Many of us have our own issues we must deal with and it takes up a lot of our time but be that as it may, before I read your last reply I was thinking about the content of this thread and really how far you've come (even if you don't realise it yourself) and the help you could give others. Emptying your head is a big help to both you and to whom ever you're talking.
You say you're bored at times but rather than trying to find things to occupy your mind I think you're now in a great position to offer advice to others suffering similar problems. You've learn't so much and received so much advice over the course of this thread that you could act as a therapist in your own right. And believe me, I 've seen it so many times, both you, Karen and your kids will get through this and survive in a much stronger way than you can imagine right now. Don't ever wish you were dead mate, cos its for eternity. Keep talking to us, any and all of us and we'll bit by bit help you through this.
cheers Gerald

Hey Banj, how are they hanging mate......
Well, I haven't been on this thread for a while and it is apparent that Karen has been talking to you as I have rung her (tried several times and nobody has been home). Things have been changing here rapidly, been VERY busy with Mrs Aus's father being very ill and eventually passing away last Friday (got the call at midnight) and we had his Funeral yesterday. All the family have been visiting Nan and the Daughter who lives in Brisbane came down, she just left to return to Brissy about 30 minutes ago. So you can see it has been a very busy and sad time for my family. I have been on the Forum but only for fleeting minutes to catch up with what is going on.

Karen has no doubt mentioned to you that I have changed jobs, I now drive buses out of the Edgeworth Depot for Hunter Valley Buses, been a while since I have driven full size vehicles but I am getting used to it. Went to Sydney today with other drivers and brought back eleven buses, all brand new. The one I drove back had just over 1000 k's on the clock and smelt like a new car. Drove like a car too, automatic gearbox and all but you have to remember there is 22 metres of vehicle behind you when you go around roundabouts.

Anyrate, I thought I would catch up with you as I have been very busy, also had to do a course called Certificate 111 Transport and Logistics (Buses and Coaches) which took 2 weeks fulltime, luckily the company paid me a wage while I was doing it.

The buses we brought back are Volvo chassis and motor with a Volgren frame, even has a camera at the back so you can see when you are reversing, good stuff.

Anyrate, that's the latest from me, hope you are going well, marvellous what you can do when you say to yourself "I can do this". Go for it mate, it can be done!!!!

Originally Posted by Didge

HI Jason, sorry I haven't been around for a while but like a lot of your friends on this thread, unfortunately we don't have the time to be here every night. Many of us have our own issues we must deal with and it takes up a lot of our time but be that as it may, before I read your last reply I was thinking about the content of this thread and really how far you've come (even if you don't realise it yourself) and the help you could give others. Emptying your head is a big help to both you and to whom ever you're talking.
You say you're bored at times but rather than trying to find things to occupy your mind I think you're now in a great position to offer advice to others suffering similar problems. You've learn't so much and received so much advice over the course of this thread that you could act as a therapist in your own right. And believe me, I 've seen it so many times, both you, Karen and your kids will get through this and survive in a much stronger way than you can imagine right now. Don't ever wish you were dead mate, cos its for eternity. Keep talking to us, any and all of us and we'll bit by bit help you through this.
cheers Gerald

Oh crap bugga ****..well karen told me today that it is over for good,cant say i blame her i put her through hell over the years & we has small arguement on the phone & that was it for her..So i now will be here for good dont know about the help just at the moment karen has my referal but it hard from here & YES IF I COULD JUST JUMP IN THE CAR & GO THERE THEN I WOULD OF VISITED THE KIDS in the last 6 weeks of being here..I have only seen the kids for maybe 4 hours over that time...
I guess i will seek help later from here once i find a doc to get into as they are all full its crap.

Still have to get my tools & stuff from karens & some boxes from the house..

It is going to take me awhile to get motavated from this but we will see...Anyway just thought i would let use all know....& that i am truely sorry to karen for my crappy life that i brought her into..
So i will see use when i see use i dont have much net time left & now cant afford any for awhile but i will be back on so dont let the thread die off keep posting i will check from my phone just quickly everynow & then..
Stay safe & take care over the christmas break if yr driving get home safly stop revive survive ...Take care all & the best wishes to everyone for xmas..

Banjo, if you want me to pick up your tools and bring them too you, only too happy too do it, mate!!!

Firstly, sorry to hear the sad new Ausfree. My condolences to you and your family.
Jason, what a change in your attitude - "It is going to take me awhile to get motavated from this but we will see." - what I read from your words is a positive attitude for the future. You will see and you will survive strongly and your relationship with your kids will flourish and all will be well in the future, even if it takes a while, believe me. Keep talking mate.
cheers gerald

Originally Posted by Didge

Firstly, sorry to hear the sad new Ausfree. My condolences to you and your family.
Jason, what a change in your attitude - "It is going to take me awhile to get motavated from this but we will see." - what I read from your words is a positive attitude for the future. You will see and you will survive strongly and your relationship with your kids will flourish and all will be well in the future, even if it takes a while, believe me. Keep talking mate.
cheers gerald

Thanks gerald,& aus for the offer karen brouhgt the kids up to see me today cody was in the pool most of the time .had some time with fred for awhile which was great she tells me she stays out later as she doesnt like being home much plus im not there for our talks anymore she & i have a strong bond & she does tell me a few things that she doesnt tell Karen & she misses that ..All her friends stay out later to but u had to pick me up off the ground when she said cause im not there is a strong part of it...
Spoke with Karen for awhile as well she is looking good although she has lost to much weight but looks good...Chatted to her for quiet some time alone & with fred a little with cody but there is a pool here so pool it was.LOL..
Was hard to watch them go as all ways...i did give Karen a kiss on the forhead again & a hug she tells me she needs more time & i hope i can get back home with her as a family again soon..