Thread: Embarrassment

So I guess you associate the smell of alcohol and some men with a bad past experience?

Originally Posted by DiscoMick

So I guess you associate the smell of alcohol and some men with a bad past experience?

Yeah the abuse came from my father

Originally Posted by banjo

Na im at maitland but i know Karen will be home if u would like to give her a text she mite say G'day.

why are you there for

goodluck jason i am off you have my phone number and my eamil address is on my thread "tonys world"

G'day Jason. Made it back to Adelaide safe and sound.

Too much traffic on the road to get bored today

Going in to the city to go shopping tomorrow then picking up our eldest son to have lunch with him on his birthday - first time in 6 years since he left home.

Have you managed to dry out the inside of the Landy yet?

Well im not to sure what to do anymore .I am still madly in love with Karen & she doesn't even know if she loves me after 23 years ...

I hate being up here & i hate it here. just put some oil in the car .got bugga all clutch & the bastard leaked real bad the other night ...

I miss Karen but i cant be at home as i want more than she is ready to offer.....

I miss the kids heaps as i have been around them everyday of there lives..
Even though they go out i am there in the morning when they get up & wen they get home from school & im there when they get home from down the road & now with the school hols they are out all the time & i miss being there when they get up & when they get home I love to hear how there day has been & wot they got upto as i dont go out much so its good to hear that the kids are actualy having fun ...

Karen is having so much fun while im not there she doesn't even miss me ..She love not having the resposability or pressure of me there & she told me she is able to relax now..& i dont want that to change i just want to be with her to enjoy her being happy & to do some things with her even if that meens just doing the shopping or going for a walk with her..
All i ever wanted was to feel some love off Karen ......

I realy dont know what to do now.. I have been doing the yard work around here ..But other than that i just sit around as everything i know is down home.. even the shops there stuff all here for me & as i dont go out to clubs or anything like that i just sit here ...

What is wrong with me i cant live without Karen & i dont want to live without Karen she is everything to me my best mate & it feels like she has died...
Is it so wrong that i am still in love with her even more now than when we first got together ..

I'm having so much trouble here without her ..I dont live i just exsist...

I'm so scared of dieing lonely the kids dont visit which is ok as it took us so long to get Fred to go out i dont want her to stop being with her friends ...

I am petrefied of being so lonely i will never meet another woman as i dont go out i will never feel another woman emotionaly or physicly..

I see some of you guys dont talk on here to me anymore...

Its killing me here & yes i do just want to die . I have lost everything that is close to me & very dear to me.. We where so close our little family..

So yeah thats where i'm at. I miss Karen & the KIds so much its not funny it hurts so much as they have been my life for so long...

Has anyone from here been in touch with Karen..



Maybe i should get use to ring her as use seem to be able to put thins to me in retard terms & i am able to understand use ......

I have no idea what to do i'm so lonely here i talk to myself alot ..

I have been drawing up a tattoo for fred & looking for one for cody...


**** i miss Karen so muych & the kids & just my life with all of them......